I can’t give you any direction in this post. I can’t tell you how to spend the best 48 hours in NYC, though surely I have ideas. As much as I want to tell you about the wonders of the world in every single post, the journey isn’t always picturesque or dreamy. Sometimes the journey is exhilerating and wild and free. Sometimes the journey is hazy, a blur of weeks, a daze. It’s uncertainty.
You know those moments where you swear to yourself that you’re never going to do that thing? You know, that thing you would never do. Yeah, I know those moments, too. And more often than not, I end up doing them. Here are 4 things I said I’d never do and when I ended up doing them.
I’ve tried to write this post a thousand times. I write something and then I backspace. I write something else and I backspace again. It’s not that I don’t know what I want to say. It’s that I don’t know how to say it in a way that will make you understand. When something so big happens, it’s hard to write about it. It’s hard to share it with you. A lot of you reading this will be friends. Friends of friends. But some of you are strangers. And sometimes I feel like even my friends are strangers after this. You haven’t changed but I have so drastically that I feel like a different person than I was just a few months ago. I look in the mirror and I wonder how I can look the same but feel so different. I still haven’t figured that part out.